My last post stirred up quite a bit in my readers and in me. The outpouring of support I get from this blog is so wonderfully amazing. You all truly make this so much more worth it for me.
Speaking of worth, a recent reader of this blog, Danielle at So Much Fattitude, has so inspired me to look at what I’m worth. I struggle with this every second of every day. I’ve never thought of myself as pretty, ever. I never would describe myself as sexy or talented or even smart. I carry my self-esteem in a bucket beside me, that’s how very un-connected to it I am. It is extremely hard for me to take a compliment of any kind simply because I don’t see myself that way.
My recent struggles on the scale amplify those thoughts in me. That is part of the reason I have chosen not to look at those numbers and to not let them have the power over me that they certainly do not deserve. Danielle’s blog really hit home when I read her recent post (read for yourself here). This quote reverberated to my very soul: The number on the scale reflects your numerical relationship with gravity–not your self-worth, your talent, your sex appeal, your humor, your purpose, your life.
Then my long time blog friend, Mrs. Cap’n Firepants over at whatimeant2say posted a link in her comment. Her daughter viewed this video in school, and I have three things to say about it.
1. She has one awesome teacher.
2. Mrs. Cap’n Firepants is awesome for sharing it.
3. It is powerfully moving and brought me to tears.
Check it out.
Again, a heartfelt thank you to all my readers, especially Danielle and the wonderful Mrs. C. Your support keeps me going, in weight loss, in writing and in growing to be a better person.